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My Belated New Year’s Resolution

“The secret is Christ in me, not me in a different set of circumstances.”  

I think I’ve come to the conclusion (again) that the above quote by Elisabeth Elliott is the only answer.

I can’t find any answers.

I’m so very tired of people’s trite and shallow comments, suggestions and “answers”.

There are no answers sufficient for the mother of a young-adult child being killed in a car accident on his way to work one morning.

None.

Not. One. Single. Answer.

Save Christ.

Christ Himself.

Not doctrines about Him, or people – people just like me – telling me they know the answers, or “professionals” bandying about their latest readings on death and grief, or confessions or choices or anything else.

Christ in me, the hope of glory.

Christ is my hope.

Christ is my help.

Christ is my very breath.  

It is by His choice that I am still breathing and walking the earth, and one of my children is “sleeping” til He returns.

I’ve become more and more reclusive because of the onslaught of carelessly and thoughtlessly voiced maxims and sayings.

But I don’t think it a useless seclusion.  I find, more and more, I know where to find my answers.  I know Whom to seek for peace.  I know where my hope lies.

I can’t find any of that anywhere but in Christ.  

In Christ alone.

I’m not usually a person who makes New Year’s resolutions, and this year was no exception.  But this latest new year’s day, a couple of months ago, I found I had a concept in my heart that felt like an arrow pointing out a direction for me to look.

A few days after this concept began dawning on my grief-addled brain, I heard my heart singing a song I learned in church many years ago, reinforcing this concept to me and helping me turn my eyes in the right direction.  It has been a struggle to keep my eyes on Him, but that is my goal for this year.  To turn my eyes upon Jesus, and keep them there.

Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus by Helen Howarth Lemmel in 1922
O soul are you weary and troubled?
No light in the darkness you see?
There’s light for a look at the Savior
And life more abundant and free.
Turn you eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace.
Through death into life everlasting
He passed, and we follow Him there.
Over us sin no more hath dominion
For more than conquerors we are.
And turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace.
His word shall not fail you, He promised;
Believe Him and all will be well.
Then go to a world that is dying
His perfect salvation to tell.
And turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace.
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace.

 

keep your eyes on Jesus

2 comments on “My Belated New Year’s Resolution

  1. Inez Branson says:

    Leann so good; I keep you and Dan in prayer. I don’t know the true grief of losing a child that one gave birth to. I know the grief of losing someone that I loved as one of my children; and watching your child go through her grief of losing her spouse. Again keeping you in prayer to allow you to seek your walk with the Lord.

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    1. Thank you, Inez. I appreciate your kind words and prayers so much.

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